One day @ the training room

When I am awake....I think about him.
When I am asleep....I dream about him.

These are the kind of lines I use nowadays. I am 16 again and that's just besides the point.

Yesterday, was the last day of my 3 day training about something that I think I have liked in my 3 years at...wherever. But then that's again besides the point.

First mistake : I was a back bench er in a huge training room. The number of people attending this training was 10.

Second mistake : I have no knack when it comes to pretence.

I was chatting with the monster. I giggled...
The trainer asked me... "You seem to find this funny. Either you got it or you just didn't..."

My answer "Pls continue...It's all cool."
What did I do? I didn't even actually answer his question.

By the time I had this realization, I was looking away and back to the screen where the monster had said something really funny.
Another voice of the trainer...this time he spoke in Hindi.
I had disrespected him and he wasn't going to be a guest to it.

"Picking kya hotee hai?"
I was shocked. I was still on the joke. And it was so funny, and with a grin on my face...I gave the most ridiculous answer.
I could have said sorry for being inattentive.
Not only was I that, I was the dumb one now.


He said, "You haven't heard a thing. I would really want you to take some value out of this training."

I still had a silly grin on my face while I was sinking in my chair.
I had two thoughts that time...
Go back in time and wipe this out.
or
Invisibility you know....

After that, I played the game of pretence. But I was late, very late.
That game caused me more insults, questions and grins.


I was traumatized. I had to be. I am a little picky!

While I told this to my significant other, he obviously comforted me. He makes up this crap, to make me feel better. I smiled again...and chatted again in between this class.
Some people never change.

When I told this to the monster, he got the biggest dope to laugh about.
He didn't let it go. I was obviously being ridiculous.

But I quote a few sentences from his conversation...which were again on the chat while not in the training. Some people really never change.


R: did u tell ur parents also?


Pragati: You won't believe it....even after tht
he kept taking my case


Pragati: he kept asking me


R:D


Pragati: if i understood


R: o boy he is a bitch!

R: he wud ve thot....such a pretty face....so lil brain.....


Pragati: y dunt u regard this as a serious insult
do u see me making smileys
i am seriously affected by this
bt u r not understanding
the gravity of this
at all

R: yeah.....happens....
but u gotta redeem urself...

R:hhahahaa.... LOLing...

R: traumatic peee..

Pragati: i thnk i will blog about this
R: yeah u shud....
n send us the link...!

R: it wud ve been like how monica felt when she got a lower grade than joey in cooking!!!
R:but i told u to pay attention....n then u stilll carried on chattin....
oh fuck....i need to pack.......kuch bhi nahi ua hai :(
chiuuuu peeeee......
u know tht girl pragati....boy shez a brain!!!!

So that's that. I know it's not a big deal.
But then that's besides the point.